now | 2022-02-02

" who are you now?"

(a question posed by my therapist)

I don't know how to answer her.

"I want you to write about that."


Who am I now?

I am a husband.
I am a father.
I am a step-father.
I am a parent. (there is a difference)
I am overwhelmed.
I am fulfilled.
I am anxious.
I am scared.
I am scared often.
I am uncertain where I used to be overly certain.
I am grateful.
I am joy.
I am rage.
I am bursting.
I am beaming.
I am a lover. (still) (always)
I am a fighter.
I am a role model.
I am a super hero.
I am a teacher.
I am a trainer.
I am nostalgia.
I am not who I used to be. (and that's ok)
I am running blind.
I am winging it.
I am trying.
I am failing.
I am making it out the other side alive.
I am the sum of all of these parts.
I am the music.
I am the sun.

I am who I am, and for as much as I have changed, I am still the same. (but better)

(and so are you)

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[cellar door]